Regan

First Day of school seemed fine, she looked exhausted that evening but she still kind of got a 2nd wind around bedtime (go figure).  Second day of school and she had a great day, no accidents, Daddy picked her up and she was WIRED last night when I got home.  Last night was a completely different story and it involved total meltdown. 

She likes to lay on me for story and song time.  Some nights I let her and other nights I don’t.  Either I don’t feel that great or I have on something that will poke/bother her and therefore she will be all elbows in my gut/uterus/nether regions trying to get comfortable.  Last night was a night that I thought she would just pass out by ‘lullaby’ so I asked her to lay down next to me.  Well that just blew up the ‘Why’ Department.  I got done with stories and songs and lullaby, no passed out child yet.  Then she likes me to rock her.  Well I knew that she was exhausted, she had been rubbing her eyes excessively and she was VERY bossy.  I said that I wasn’t going to last night and the ‘CIO’ Department took over.  Then she was scared, then she wanted hugs, scared again and finally I just had to let her do her thing and cry.

Think she is a bit overwhelmed/insecure/exhausted???  Yeah, I think so too.

SBD Weigh-In Day 22

Okay, I think, if I remember correctly, I have gained .2lbs.  I’m not really upset, I haven’t followed everything to a ‘T’ and I was trying to figure out why this time seems so much harder. 

First off, my job last time I did this was L.A.M.E.  I didn’t have anything to really do but concentrate on when I should eat and all that stuff (seriously I didn’t have much to do).  Secondly, I had a baby, she was all of 10 months old and way easier (although I thought difficult at the time, just because she was something new in our lives – that is what I mean by difficult), to deal with than my now pre-schooler with ATTITUDE.  So work is more stressful, don’t get me wrong it isn’t always that way, but during work hours sometimes I either don’t have time or just forget.  My home life is just more stressful because Regan is more challenging because she is just too damn smart.

I’m not making excuses but these are things that I have just realized in doing this diet this time.  The other thing is I always feel hungry.  I need to snack more!  (Something to keep in mind for myself).